Option 1 Self Portrait - My Will is my Strength

A one of a kind... you could never understand. My Will is unlike any other you have ever seen before. YOU CANNOT begin to imagine the power that I hold within.... I suppose it is all for the best though. Humans are so simple... they fear what they do not understand for I am no exception. My Will... unlike any other, is unique in a way that my Will never falters. I know what I want... I know what must be done to accomplish my goals. All that ever changes, are the importance of those goals. I might realize that I can show the world the pain on the inside by becoming an Actor. I could show my determination to help others by becoming a Psychologist. I could show my passion for the Law and become a Prosecuting Attorney. These are just specks that make up who I am. We each have our own very unique flavors.... however I choose to go what is on the inside more than the outside. Your looks will fade... Your Will.... is ETERNAL!

An Angelic Requiem

Dear One-Winged,

I am in a relationship with someone who I love dearly. We have grown up together for over 16 years and she treats me very badly. My problem is that I have never felt this way for someone in my entire life. She is the first Human Being that I have ever shed tears for and I just want to give her everything that I can all for her beautiful smile. Everyone around me is telling me that I am being used and that she is just using me because she is a manipulative bitch. I don't want to believe that the one who has stolen my heart is doing such things like using me... What could she possibly have to gain by treating me worse than a Puppet? Any advice would be greatly appreciated. What should I do? Where should I go from here? She is my eternity...


Dear Writer,

It sounds to me as if you really are being used.... I am afraid that there are occasions where someone will know someone for so long and become so attached to them that they don't want to even consider that they are being used. Now, my advice to you is to observe the situation and try to disconnect from her. Trust me... staying close is only going to hurt you more in the end. I have been in a situation such as this before and I felt really badly when i realized what was going on. I wanted to give her my soul just to see her smile. It was never enough and I knew she was seeing other people but I didn't care. Then things got more serious and I ended up ruining her life and I don't regret it to this day. You do not want to go down the same path that I have gone down because I will always have to live with that darkness. You have a choice. You can be the bigger person and show her that you don't need her to be happy which will annoy her because she probably thinks you idolize her and cannot live without her, or you can stay and let her suck your life dry and then finally drop you. If I could repeat my situation, I would have slowly left as if I didn't care and gone on with the rest of my life. Good Luck1 it is all up to you now.

Sincerely,
The One-Winged Angel

Hath the Shattered Soul

You'd think I would have more respect from her after growing up together for over 16 years... I knew she was the one I wanted to make smile everyday. HAHAHA WHAT A FUCKING JOKE! I gave her everything..... EVERY DAMN THING JUST BECAUSE I WANTED TO SEE HER SMILE! Not once did she ever... I did everything to make her happy and it was never enough. Nothing was ever good enough. I heard from everyone else how I am one of the best guys on this planet and whoever ends up with me would be the luckiest person in existence. She was the first person that i ever showed emotion to... Her actions were all lies to me. How can you drive someone to the Netherworld and smile at that? I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. IT WAS ALL A FUCKING LIE! Growing up together, I thought of you differently than I did everyone else. I saw something in you that nobody else had. You piqued my interests and I always wanted to be by your side. Time passed and i grew so close to you... I never once doubted you even when others warned me. I defended you because I loved you. I regret it all! But there was one good thing that was born from the truth. I am now aware and no longer afraid of getting hurt. It's like I have built up an immunity to pain and I welcome it with opened arms. Yet at the same time, I don't go looking for trouble. I deal with it all in my own way and thanks to you, I am now impervious to a bleeding heart. After all.... you cannot kill what is already dead. But my Will is my strength! My strength is my shield! There is a small light of hope that remains dormant in my veins. One day... perhaps it will awaken and heal my Shattered Soul.

"I Remember"

I remember when I was born
I remember when I was little
I remember my parents
I remember when I cried
I remember when my heart was broken
I remember when I learned to walk
I remember when I went to Elementary School
I remember my first Baseball Game
I remember when I learned to swim
I remember when I used to care
I remember when I was naive
I remember people from my past
I remember my grandfather
I remember my dreams
I remember when I learned to walk
I remember when I used to smile
I remember when it all started
I remember when I became aware
I remember when I graduated Highschool

"I've been Everywhere"

I've been in the womb
I've been to Universal Studios Florida
I've been to Lake George for a fishing trip
I've been to the Hospital when I was sick
I've been to Times Square to do some shopping
I've been to Taco Bell because I work there
I've been to Roosevelt Field Mall for a day on the town
I've been in your dreams
I've been to the bathroom early in the morning
I've been in the kitchen all day long cooking
I've been to the sandy white beaches
I've been to Six Flags to ride Medusa
I've been to Brooklyn
I've been to Manhattan
I've been to Florida
I've been to The Hall of Science
I've been to the Empire State Building
I've been to the Doctor
I've been to get my ears pierced
I've been to the Dentist
I've been to get Chinese Food
I've been to my Subconscious Domain
I've been to the Park
I've been to the Aquarium
I've been to my friends house
I've been to a Cafe
I've been to Starbucks
I've been to Highschool
I've been to a Pep Rally
I've been to the pool
I've been to the Subway
I've been to a Bus Stop
I've been to other Fast Food Restaurants
I've been to The Statue of Liberty
I've been to Alley Pond
I've been to the Movies
I've been to the Post Office
I've been to the YMCA
I've been to a Concert
I've been to a Baseball Game