"Love" Code: ARSENIC

Slowly draining my strength
I dream of thee 
You face... everlasting in my heart
I dream of you with another...
My smile turns sour
Your lips touch
My adrenaline rushes
I open my eyes...
Tis not a dream
You have poisoned me with your lies
An eternity flashes before my eyes
My heart slowly ceases it's beat
You stare at my lifeless corpse
Your lips meet once again.

Poetry Inside of the Government

The place of Politics inside of the Poetry community is that of 50/50. Everyone has their own likes/dislikes about the way the Government works. I believe that Levertov makes an interesting point. "Poetry articulating the dreads and horrors of our time is necessary in order to make readers understand what is happening, really understand it.

My Personally made Poem

what you have done

what have you done to me?
a black cloud of chaos as feelings scream.
once we were together in paradise,
innocent and untainted,
but your desire soured.
a vengeful vision of hatred -
drops of blood follow bitterness, follow blood,
love consumed.
in a rush of tears,
i condemn you.

Snoop Doggy-Dog

What the fuck man, I don't mean no disrespect.
I'm what they call a real man fo sho!
I preach pussy like you preach salvation motherfuckers!
East coast west coast north coast south coast I'm the main bitch!
All the way from the 310 to the 212
Bitches wanna be laid cuzz
Smoking like a chimney,
WOOOO now thats some good shit!
I'm a real man!
All of u in school
You don't know life!
This is life
I AM LIFE!

Hating Love

I hate the pain
I hate the suffering
I hate the lies
I hate the feeling of love
I hate to hate you
I hate that I was naive
I hate that I believed you
I hate myself
I hate the look on your face now that you are happy with someone else
I hate your smile
I hate the slut you are with
I hate that I cannot let you go
I hate having to deal with this pain
I hate the thought that you never loved me
I hate the thought of her in your arms
I hate the words you spoke to me
I hate your excuses
I hate who you have become
I hate that I trusted you
 I hate that I didn't know anything
I hate that I cannot change anything
I hate that you are gone
I hate that you are happier with someone else

I Don't Care

Always talking, always screaming!
Just shut your mouth you pathetic being!
Why are you here, why come to me?
There must have been others who care more than me.
I am a busy man,
I don't have time for this.
Just get lost and forget about me!
You say I am the only one who can help?
On that I disagree.
You were never there for me!
Why should I listen to your words?
Get lost! I just don't care!

Judgement Day Questions

1. The Main Theme of my work is "The End." Simply put... Planet Earth during/after an Apocalypse. Most of the images consist of City Ruins. Others consist of The Rising Dead or a Zombie Apocalypse. When the Dead begin to rise and roam the Earth, then you know that it is the end. I personally don't believe in the dead rising, however I do believe that one day, the Earth will be in ruin. Cities in chaos... people fighting one another and I hope I never live to see that day.

2. I chose to arrange my images all connected with the Poem written on top of them because I want the reader to visualize actually being there during such an event. I want the words to be shaped into their minds as they read and observe the surrounding photos.

3. I decided to choose the theme of "The Apocalypse" because unlike some other people, I am much more aware that Humans are like a Parasitic Being roaming this Planet like an Infection/Germ. We use gasoline/oil, we don't always recycle, and we suck this Planet dry of all of it's resources. Just think about future generations.... because of our selfish "Need to Survive" there might not be many years left. We are destroying this Planet like an infection rots a wound on the Human Body.

Edgar Allan Poe

1.) What did that Black Cat do to you to make you want to cut it's eye out? I have to say that it really pissed me off when you did that.
2.) What drove you to be so sadistic? You are one of my inspirations no less but some of your methods seem rather.... extreme if you will.
3.)Tell me about your past. I find you rather.... intriguing. Much more than I have to say about most people.

Born in Boston, Massachusetts Poe was given life on January 19th, 1809. His parents were both actors but died in an accident when he was very young. In a way you could say this scarred Poe mentally because he was raised as a Foster Child by Frances Allan in Richmond, Virginia. He was very bright and an overachiever so he was sent to the highest classes of boarding schools. He was then accepted into the University of Virginia. He was later dismissed because he refused to repay gambling debts. In 1827, he enlisted in the United States Army. A few of his poems such as Timer Lane and Minor Poems were published that same year. No more were published until 1829. His second Publications drew much attention both Positive and Negative. He was forced to leave the army that year due to lack of financial support. He then moved to his aunt's home because he had nowhere else to go at the time in Baltimore, Maryland. In 1835, he became editor of the Southern Literary Messenger. Poe ended up marrying his niece Virginia in 1836. Soon after, he began writing short stories such as "The Fall of the House of Usher." This was one of his most famous short stories and caused quite a stir amongst the public. Some people did not agree with Poe's "Satanic Views" on life while others found it quite interesting. The Poem which caused quite alot of controversy was none other than "The Black Cat." The reason being that Poe actually cut out the eye of a cat who he believed to be mocking him. He was almost institutionalized for this violent act. Poe suffered from a deep depression and he ended up turning to alcohol for the answer. This caused him to gain Alcoholism. Virginia died from tuberculosis in 1849 which left him completely in ruin. In october of 1849, Poe died from acute congestion of the brain.

The Fountain of Knowledge

I crave for the facts that await my inner space.
To realize ones true self, I venture forth.
Tell me what I need... I beg you for the truth!
I beg you for the lies! I need to know it all! I crave all matter of Knowledge.
Allow me to drink from the cup of everlasting youth.
Only knowledge will quench my thirst.
My mind... so restless in this labyrinth before my eyes.
My quest to find my true self and develop even further.
Critique me if you must! I care not!
Aide me in my journey to find my own salvation.
Father Time warns me to take heed! My time of judgment is approaching. 
I swiftly venture forth to the great beyond.
The time has come to test my skills.
I seat myself upon the throne of knowledge...
God knows many have come and failed.
I must survive to tell my tale.
The time is now! I act at the sound of my masters voice!
One after the other, I answer with great ease.
The air becomes filled with tension, I begin to choke.
Beads of sweat perspiring from my neck.
I pour my knowledge into my one final act, as my master commands thee to cease and desist.
Slowly approached, I am granted the gift of Knowledge.
With this parchment of paper, I will leave my mark upon this soil.
Oh how I crave for Knowledge...

I Believe

I believe in Hate
I believe in Love
I believe in the fight for a new tomorrow
I believe Humans are fools
I believe Love is stupid
I believe disagreements will be the downfall of Humanity
I believe greedy bastards are in control
I believe things need to change
I believe there is a small glimpse of Hope
I believe the time is now
I believe Humans are weak
I believe I am equal to everyone else
I believe in my own Will
I believe in School
I believe in my future
I believe in sorrow
I believe in happiness
I believe everyone is unique
I believe in equality for all
I believe in pain
I believe in heartbreak
I Don't believe in Heaven or Hell
I believe in Heaven or Hell on Earth
I believe that I am strong
I believe that I am weak
I believe that I am Human
I believe that I make mistakes
I believe in forgiveness
I believe in damnation
I believe in Evil
I believe in Purity
I don't believe there is a single future
I believe the world can survive without money
I believe in Karma
I believe you have to experience pain in order to grow
I believe that you need your past to be who you are now

Shackles called Humanity

Created by a Will unknown, my fate is set. I need to escape! I must escape! I do not wish to rot here for eternity. Bound by mortality, I wander the Savannah in the lands of yore. There must be a way to escape. I look up to the Heavens above. I long to fly from Hades grasp, Pegasus in flight to a new Eternity! "COME! The time is now! The end is upon us! Humanity is doomed!" We fly into the endless skies whilst Hades grasps my legs with shackles bound to the morrow. We fall down, Chained to this land of Humanity.

Option 1 Self Portrait - My Will is my Strength

A one of a kind... you could never understand. My Will is unlike any other you have ever seen before. YOU CANNOT begin to imagine the power that I hold within.... I suppose it is all for the best though. Humans are so simple... they fear what they do not understand for I am no exception. My Will... unlike any other, is unique in a way that my Will never falters. I know what I want... I know what must be done to accomplish my goals. All that ever changes, are the importance of those goals. I might realize that I can show the world the pain on the inside by becoming an Actor. I could show my determination to help others by becoming a Psychologist. I could show my passion for the Law and become a Prosecuting Attorney. These are just specks that make up who I am. We each have our own very unique flavors.... however I choose to go what is on the inside more than the outside. Your looks will fade... Your Will.... is ETERNAL!

An Angelic Requiem

Dear One-Winged,

I am in a relationship with someone who I love dearly. We have grown up together for over 16 years and she treats me very badly. My problem is that I have never felt this way for someone in my entire life. She is the first Human Being that I have ever shed tears for and I just want to give her everything that I can all for her beautiful smile. Everyone around me is telling me that I am being used and that she is just using me because she is a manipulative bitch. I don't want to believe that the one who has stolen my heart is doing such things like using me... What could she possibly have to gain by treating me worse than a Puppet? Any advice would be greatly appreciated. What should I do? Where should I go from here? She is my eternity...


Dear Writer,

It sounds to me as if you really are being used.... I am afraid that there are occasions where someone will know someone for so long and become so attached to them that they don't want to even consider that they are being used. Now, my advice to you is to observe the situation and try to disconnect from her. Trust me... staying close is only going to hurt you more in the end. I have been in a situation such as this before and I felt really badly when i realized what was going on. I wanted to give her my soul just to see her smile. It was never enough and I knew she was seeing other people but I didn't care. Then things got more serious and I ended up ruining her life and I don't regret it to this day. You do not want to go down the same path that I have gone down because I will always have to live with that darkness. You have a choice. You can be the bigger person and show her that you don't need her to be happy which will annoy her because she probably thinks you idolize her and cannot live without her, or you can stay and let her suck your life dry and then finally drop you. If I could repeat my situation, I would have slowly left as if I didn't care and gone on with the rest of my life. Good Luck1 it is all up to you now.

Sincerely,
The One-Winged Angel

Hath the Shattered Soul

You'd think I would have more respect from her after growing up together for over 16 years... I knew she was the one I wanted to make smile everyday. HAHAHA WHAT A FUCKING JOKE! I gave her everything..... EVERY DAMN THING JUST BECAUSE I WANTED TO SEE HER SMILE! Not once did she ever... I did everything to make her happy and it was never enough. Nothing was ever good enough. I heard from everyone else how I am one of the best guys on this planet and whoever ends up with me would be the luckiest person in existence. She was the first person that i ever showed emotion to... Her actions were all lies to me. How can you drive someone to the Netherworld and smile at that? I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. IT WAS ALL A FUCKING LIE! Growing up together, I thought of you differently than I did everyone else. I saw something in you that nobody else had. You piqued my interests and I always wanted to be by your side. Time passed and i grew so close to you... I never once doubted you even when others warned me. I defended you because I loved you. I regret it all! But there was one good thing that was born from the truth. I am now aware and no longer afraid of getting hurt. It's like I have built up an immunity to pain and I welcome it with opened arms. Yet at the same time, I don't go looking for trouble. I deal with it all in my own way and thanks to you, I am now impervious to a bleeding heart. After all.... you cannot kill what is already dead. But my Will is my strength! My strength is my shield! There is a small light of hope that remains dormant in my veins. One day... perhaps it will awaken and heal my Shattered Soul.

"I Remember"

I remember when I was born
I remember when I was little
I remember my parents
I remember when I cried
I remember when my heart was broken
I remember when I learned to walk
I remember when I went to Elementary School
I remember my first Baseball Game
I remember when I learned to swim
I remember when I used to care
I remember when I was naive
I remember people from my past
I remember my grandfather
I remember my dreams
I remember when I learned to walk
I remember when I used to smile
I remember when it all started
I remember when I became aware
I remember when I graduated Highschool

"I've been Everywhere"

I've been in the womb
I've been to Universal Studios Florida
I've been to Lake George for a fishing trip
I've been to the Hospital when I was sick
I've been to Times Square to do some shopping
I've been to Taco Bell because I work there
I've been to Roosevelt Field Mall for a day on the town
I've been in your dreams
I've been to the bathroom early in the morning
I've been in the kitchen all day long cooking
I've been to the sandy white beaches
I've been to Six Flags to ride Medusa
I've been to Brooklyn
I've been to Manhattan
I've been to Florida
I've been to The Hall of Science
I've been to the Empire State Building
I've been to the Doctor
I've been to get my ears pierced
I've been to the Dentist
I've been to get Chinese Food
I've been to my Subconscious Domain
I've been to the Park
I've been to the Aquarium
I've been to my friends house
I've been to a Cafe
I've been to Starbucks
I've been to Highschool
I've been to a Pep Rally
I've been to the pool
I've been to the Subway
I've been to a Bus Stop
I've been to other Fast Food Restaurants
I've been to The Statue of Liberty
I've been to Alley Pond
I've been to the Movies
I've been to the Post Office
I've been to the YMCA
I've been to a Concert
I've been to a Baseball Game